Portishead ❀ 〈The Rip〉 & 〈Roads〉 🎶

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The Rip

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The Rip (2008), is a song from Portishead of their album “Third”.

“Portishead ❀ 〈The Rip〉” amazon

The song is written by band members Geoff Barrow, Beth Gibbons, Adrian Utley. Beth is the singer.

As she walks in the room
Scented and tall
Hesitating once more
And as I take on myself
And the bitterness I felt
I realise that love flows

Wild, white horses
They will take me away
And the tenderness I feel
Will send the dark underneath
Will I follow?

Through the glory of life
I will scatter on the floor
Disappointed and sore
And in my thoughts I have bled
For the riddles I've been fed
Another lie moves over

Mull over the lyrics. The song, as i discovered this week with Sleeves Rhode, has personal meanings.

So, i was chatting with Sleeves, a girl i imagined to be my love, who is unwilling or unable. We've kinda dated, spent about 4 hours or so daily chatting in Second Life for the past about 2 or 3 years.

Among our love, is Portishead's songs, in particular, we love Road and Wandering Stars. She's kinda mentally unstable. For example, she told me that when she was teen, she committed suicide (unsuccessfully) while listened to the song Roads and Gloomy Sunday repeatedly for days.

She has disappeared without a word about 6 months ago (which she is wont to do), and just re-appeared again recently, and she's been very receptive and nice to me.

The problem with our relationship is that, now and then she stings. The lyrics of this song describes my quandary.

According to itune, i've been listening to this song 205 times since yesterday's discovery.

2011-05-09
[06:17]  Sleeves Rhode: better now?
[06:17]  Xah Toll: what u want?
[06:17]  Sleeves Rhode: I want know if you're better now
[06:18]  Xah Toll: not rly
[06:18]  Sleeves Rhode: why so upset?
[06:19]  Sleeves Rhode: if you hurry, you can dance with me
[06:26]  Sleeves Rhode: what you think you gain by acting like this?
[06:35]  Xah Toll: u abused me many times
[06:36]  Xah Toll: yesterday i put up a lot to trust u again
[06:46]  Sleeves Rhode: but you still want to be my friend. dunno why you love me so much,
[06:49]  Xah Toll: yeah sure friend, but then u needn't pull that partner promise shit
[06:50]  Xah Toll: and then tell me told flatly that you lied with smugness
[06:51]  Sleeves Rhode: you really torn up about that?
[06:51]  Xah Toll: thats really nasty, just as u made up that "you were a boy" story

You can see a picture of me and Sleeves in sl: Math in Second Life ₂.

Roads

Here's Portishead's Roads.

“Portishead ❀ 〈Roads〉” amazon
Oh, can't anybody see,
We've got a war to fight,
Never found our way,
Regardless of what they say.

How can it feel, this wrong,
From this moment,
How can it feel, this wrong.

Storm,
In the morning light,
I feel,
No more can I say,
Frozen to myself.

I got nobody on my side,
And surely that ain't right,
Surely that ain't right.
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